The Journey Begins … And Continues ~

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Thanks for joining me. I hope you'll choose to stay away. This isΒ the beginning of a story; one of which I've struggled to write a long while, yet have continued to face crushing blows and attempts to defeat any efforts at healing, thus keeping the words, all the secrets locked away in that deep dark … Continue reading The Journey Begins … And Continues ~

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I Choose to Climb ~

I feel compelled to continue writing about living with depression and all the layers that come with it. I think it can be confusing, but needs to be talked about so that the stigma of it gets eradicated and it can be treated just like any other illness that a person may be saddled with … Continue reading I Choose to Climb ~

Welcome to my World ~

I turn good things into dust, I completely eradicate their grandeur and rebuild them into turrets of self doubt and loathing. When something good happens, something I should be proud of, I tarnish it with thoughts that it was a fluke, something that will never happen again. Whatever it is, it isn’t good enough. It … Continue reading Welcome to my World ~

The Breaking of the Broken πŸ’”

It feels like hundreds of years since I have visited my own blog. My bones should have become brittle and my hair stark white. I will forever be in the waiting game, but this time, I return to this blog having been immersed in a different kind of writing and not simply buried under a … Continue reading The Breaking of the Broken πŸ’”

Fading Into Remembering ~

I have been in a bleak place lately. It is a familiar place, a place of introspection where I can try to figure out what is bringing on the sadness. I thought it was because of the shit storm of flashbacks I have been getting, but they were just the cap on feelings that were … Continue reading Fading Into Remembering ~

Buried Behind Labels

The day began long before it should have. I woke up with that feeling that always comes, that feeling of my breath being unbearably heavy in my chest. I begin again to question everything.Β  Gradually I become saturated in the desire to disappear. What seemed clear yesterday reveals itself as a lie in a new … Continue reading Buried Behind Labels

Crippling Frailities ~

I thought as I first entertained the idea of pouring myself out to the world that I was going to do this or I would do that. I was determined to become more disciplined, more succinct in keeping my blog alive. I was going to post twice a week; . I have a number of … Continue reading Crippling Frailities ~

That Deplorable, Detestable, D-Thing

Let's talk about the D-word, shall we? It's taboo, carrying such a loathsome stigma in most cases. But I recently read two blog posts about depression, and its effects on those living with this afflictive reality.Β Both are brave and honest accounts of what it is like to live with depression, and both are written openly … Continue reading That Deplorable, Detestable, D-Thing

Deeply Desperate Ponderings ~

Today I feel buried beneath the weight of a fog that permeates my thoughts. I am on a dangerous precipice between depression and despondency, my strides uncertain and guided by fear. I find myself again and again, tangled up in a desire to escape the person I have always been and the depression that murders … Continue reading Deeply Desperate Ponderings ~